High School behaviors

Well, the other day I revolted back to high school and to be honest reflecting back, I feel silly!  However, I feel that the situation did get out of hand and it could have been handled differently but it is now in the past.

This is what I know:
My good friend and her boyfriend broke up two months or so ago and it was because their lives were on such different paths.  He was unemployed and had some issues and she is employed and is a great catch.  Now, during the relationship she was the bread winner and this boyfriend allowed it and abused the privlidges of being a good boyfriend and he took advantage of her.  Well, this girl finally opened her eyes and realized that she was being shit on and decided that a break would be best.  So the girl states that they are going to remain friends but at most times the friendships never last, but koodoos if it works!  So as time goes on the guy messages me and asks me all of these questions about her and proceeds to go onto saying that it was all her fault and blah blah blah and I advised him to give her her space and maybe down the road things will work out.  He WAS a really nice guy and I thought that maybe over time it would resolve itself.  WELL.....then yesterday happened!

A post was put on facebook by the girl and she had mentioned that she was yet again hurt and we had talked about it and on the post I had said look at the source.  Well it was not until he he replied with a hasty comment that I decided that I should let him know that what he is doing wrong.  And, that is where it all began!

So, he and I went back and forth over aprox. 39 - 40 posts about their relationship.  That was a mistake because it turned out that he started to bash me!  LOL I think this is kinda humorous because never once did I instigate a verbal attack towards him but merely stated a fact that perhaps he should keep his mouth shut because he knows dam well that what he is saying is a farce.  All in all, one of his friends decided to send a letter to the guy, the girl, and moi.  In the letter it stated that he should pretty much get a life and get over it!

The reason for this post today is because I revolted back to high school! I  hated high school!  I HATE drama!  The problem that I have is that women that are shy and timid and too afraid to stand up for themselves often need someone to stick up for them, that is what I did!  I stood up for someone that needed standing up for!  He was outright lying about everything he had said on facebook and to her friends on her wall.

My last and final point is that I am me, I am outspoken and I stand up for my friends and if they choose to go back to losers or befriend them than that is fine, but realize that these men that treat women like shit deserve to be castrated!  I have been hurt by men over and over again and it is a pattern.  I am FINALLY breaking through my pattern, I DO NOT NEED A MAN THAT BAD TO BE ABUSED!

To this girl, I know you will read this.

I love you! you are one of my best friends! I think you deserve better than him! If you choose to be with him, go for it, DO NOT INCLUDE ME IN YOUR PLANS!  He is an asshole that hits below the belt and he is a loser and always will be!  If you want to be his friend that is fine, but realize that he will continue to hurt you over and over and over again and you deserve so much more than that!   You are a beautiful person on the inside and out and I have a hard time seeing you get hurt.

Anyone this is my friend knows that I am a passionate person and I have a hard time with hurt!  I love ALL of my friends and I may not be in your face all the time hanging out and what not but I am ALWAYS on the other end of the phone and will ALWAYS drive a million miles to help out.  And there will be times that I get fucked, well so be it! I know in my heart that I have done the right thing!

Until next time,
Jewellz

SARAH Palin is not a fan ofFamily Guy!

The 2008 Republican vice presidential nominee and current Fox News contributor has lashed out at the portrayal of a character with Down syndrome on the animated comedy.
Chris Griffin, the show’s awkward teenager, goes on a date with Ellen, a girl with Down syndrome.
“So what do your parents do?” he innocently asks.
“My dad’s an accountant, and my mom is the former governor of Alaska,” the girl responded.
Palin — who resigned as Alaska governor last summer — has a son with special needs, Trig.
And she isn’t happy.

“The world is full of cruel, cold-hearted people who would do such a thing,” Palin saidin an appearance on Fox News Channel’s The O’Reilly Factor.
“When is enough enough? And when are we going to be willing to say, you know, some things just aren’t really funny,” she said.
Sarah has also taken her outrage to Facebook, writing, “Fox Hollywood — What a Disappointment.”

Palin’s oldest daughter, Bristol, also was quoted on her mother’s Facebook page, calling the show’s writers “heartless jerks.”
“When you’re the son or daughter of a public figure, you have to develop thick skin. My siblings and I all have that, but insults directed at our youngest brother hurt too much for us to remain silent,” she is quoted as saying.

“If the writers of a particularly pathetic cartoon show thought they were being clever in mocking my brother and my family yesterday, they failed,” Bristol Palin added in the Monday posting. “All they proved is that they’re heartless jerks.”

Palin wrote that she’d asked her daughter what she thought of the show and Bristol’s reply was “a much more restrained and gracious statement than I want to make about an issue that begs the question: When is enough enough?”

Ok Sarah Palin, let's face it, you are a douche bag! However, in regards to Family Guy making fun of your down syndrome son ya that is totally inappropriate and the show writers should be ashamed of themselves for making fun of people with down syndrome in the first place.  It is disgusting that a national television writing company should make fun of people with mental illnesses, if that is what Down Syndrome is all about, more to come on that. 


But Sarah Palin, listen sugar, THEY DON'T LIKE YOU! No one does, as mentioned above....YOU ARE A DOUCHE BAG!  


Get over yourself! there was no direct comment about you in that episode and I think that you are so wannabe high and mighty and what I think you should do is just climb back underneath that rock you came from! 


hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Until next time,
Jewellz 

Fun Things To Do In An Elevator

Make race car noises when people get on and off.

Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your kleenex to other passengers.

Grimace painfully while slapping your forehead and muttering, "Shut up dammit, all of you just SHUT UP!"

Whistle the first 7 notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.

Sell Girl Scout Cookies.

On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.

Shave.

Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask, "Got enough air in there?"

Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear your upside-down.

Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.

When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to pull the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.

Lean over to another passenger and whisper, "Ever had a Wet Willy?"

Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you "Admiral."

One word: Flatulence!

On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.

Do Tai Chi exercises.

Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on."

When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back, "Oh, not now, doggone motion sickness!"

Give religious tracts to each passenger.

Meow occasionally.

Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.

Frown and mutter, "Gotta go, gotta go," then sigh and say, "oops!"

Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.

Sing "Mary Had a Little Lamb" while continuously pushing buttons.

Holler, "Chutes away!!" whenever the elevator descends.

Walk on with a cooler that says "Human Head" on the side.

Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce, "You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.

Burp, then say, "Mmmmm.....tasty!"

Leave a box between the doors.

Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them.

Wear a hand puppet and talk to the other passengers "through" it.

Start a sing-along.

When the elevator is silent, look around and ask, "Is that your beeper?"

Play the accordion.

Shadow box.

Say, "Ding!" at each floor.

Lean against the button panel.

Say, "I wonder what all these do?" and then push ALL the red buttons.

Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.

Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."

Bring a chair along.

Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger, "Wanna see wha in muh mouf??"

Blow spit bubbles.

Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.

Announce in a demonic voice, "I must find a more suitable host body."

Carry a blanket a clutch it protectively.

Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.

Wear "X-Ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.

Stare at your thumb and say, "I think it's getting bigger."

If anyone brushes against you, recoil fiercely and scream, "BAD TOUCH!"


Until next time,
Jewellz

My wish for life!

My wish for my life:

A partner, my partner should be someone that connects with me on all levels.  Someone with the following characteristics adaptable, Organized, Adventurous, Enthusiastic, Patient, Ambitious, Flexible, Practical,
Assertive, Fun, Praising, Boastful, Fussy to some extent, Relaxed, Calm, Humorous, Responsible, Caring Idealistic, Sarcastic to some extent, Cautious, Imaginative, Serious, Competitive, Independent, Sociable, Confident, Intuitive, Thrifty, Cooperative, Inventive, Curious, Kind, Tactful, Decisive, Loyal, Talkative, Tolerant, Easygoing, Tough, Efficient, Opportunistic, Trusting, Empathetic, Optimistic, and Wary.  Just to mention a few!  This person should be at most of these qualities as I am a lot of these.  This person should enjoy the outdoors, movies, music, dancing, and most importantly should be able to laugh at themselves, and that is hard to do at times.

A marriage, I would  hope that when I find my partner that my marriage is something that is sacred.  Something that both of us want.  Many ask if a big wedding is something that is desired.  NO, I want my husband to be, my parents, my son, my siblings to be around from both parties.  I would like to have a beach wedding, something where my husband and I can share the outdoors, and the sunshine and free alcohol on an all inclusive holiday!  To find someone to marry is a very important step in life, and I hope that some day real soon, my life partner will find me and love me until the end as I with them!

A career, my career should be something that I am passionate about.  Currently I am there! As a PSW I help people with their daily living and am a companion to a lot of them.  Sure there are aspects of the job that are not a lot of fun.  I have been fortunate to have clients that I care about and that I have learned things from.  I am fortunate because finally I have found a career that I enjoy! It has taken me a few careers to get to where I am today and I think that I have finally found my niche!

A home, a home is something that I have always wanted, and it hopefully will be a home built on love.  I hope that my house will be somewhere on the outskirts of a town where there is room for toys.  My ideal house would be white with a dark roof, it will have a wrap around porch where I can put some rocking chairs.  This home will have a separate garage located unattached to the house.  Inside my home would be very similar to an older Victorian farm house.  It would have a huge kitchen and living room with a bathroom on the main floor.  The kitchen would be painted yellow and have lots of sunlight.  It would have a large kitchen table that is made of wood and has big chairs to sit in.  The window coverings would be eye lit shams and would tuck and be open.   I would have a big stove with a separate oven built into the wall.  The living room would have a large over-sized leather couch that was placed by a fireplace and there would be over-sized comfy leather chairs.  The coffee table would have a large candle on it.  The bathroom would be painted blue and would be just a partial bathroom.  In my home, I would try to have fresh flowers throughout the summer and in the winter the smell of freshly backed goods!

Pets & toys, I would have dogs, anywhere from 2 - 4.  They would have to be chocolate lab, newfoundland, and hopefully Mickey!  We would go out hiking almost everyday and we would spend a lot of the time out doors.  We would have ATV's and snowmobiles, and we would have to have a riding lawnmower for the grass and a tractor for the snow.  We would have land to be on and we could use it everyday.  In the summer, we would have a pool to go swimming in and in the winter we would have snowshoes, skis, and snowmobiles.

Kids, I would probably not have many.  When I was younger I always wanted lots of kids, but as I age I am not sure if medically I can have kids.  If my partner was interested in having children then perhaps we could adopt.  To offer a life to a child is fascinating.  To have them go to school and come home and tell you all about their day.  At dinners we would have time for everyone to share something fascinating about their day and we would talk and have a nice time over dinner.  Afterwards, the team would help out and assist with cleaning the kitchen and then homework could be done.  

This is my wish, this is my dream.  Life will always hand you a basket and it is up to the individual to choose what goes in the basket.   I hope that in my basket is some of what is above and then when I am ready to fill my basket completely, I will have a wonderful partner to assist!

Until next time,
Jewellz

Not sure what to say

So I want to know why I am having such huge issues with this friend of mine.  Multiple actually.  Let's start with the woman's side, this person I have known for over a year and we have shared interests and we had hit it off quite well and then sometime ago this woman stabbed me in the back.  And it really hurt, because she nearly cost me a friendship with someone else, and it seems that I am having troubles dealing with the fact that this friendship is coming to a close.  The reason why it is coming to a close is because of trust issues.  

This person has hurt some of my friends by the manipulation and the lies and deceit that she causes.  It hurts because apparently (I am happy for) she has never said anything bad about me! Is that because she knows that I will knock her on her ass verbally if she does something to me.  But what I don't understand is why she feels that she has to hurt everyone in her circle, in our circle.  One by one.  

Just for the record, "I am 30 years old and no longer in highschool!"  I do not want to play these games, I do not want to hear you complain and spread lies to people and then turn around and be nice to their face.  It is wrong!!

So I have to ask myself do I confront this person or do I continue to let it happen?  Do I break up a circle of friendships and / or alienate myself from this group?  I have confronted this issue to the people that she is hurting and they have been hurt but then have brushed it off, so why does it bug me so much?

So now to the men's side, this person that I am talking about, he and I have been friends for a long time.  Silent for the past 10 - 12 years and now we are rekindling our friendship and having the possibility of something more.  Do I want more? I think so! However, I dont think that this person is ready for a commitment yet so someone else as they have been hurt by all women in his path and he is newly single.  well, I dunno maybe 10 months.  

So upon talking to him we have discovered that we have many things in common, including music interests and more.  So I have learned that he has many interests and he has probably learned that I am a cracker box.  He lives his life as happy as possible, or so it seems and then he comes out with these outrageous comments about his past and his up coming future and to be honest, it's pissing me off! 

Why, well I dunno maybe because there are some feelings being built up to this person, and perhaps I like him am putting a wall up so that I don't get hurt again and again and again!  Do I care about this person, more than he will ever know! and that is because of things that we have talked about! 

I am not a happy person all the time, most of the time and when I am faced with situations in my life that I find hard, I tend to run.  It sucks, because that is when I normally start to blow things. 

I guess my beef is that I tried to make him realize that perhaps he and his ex might want to sit down and possibly rekindle something when he goes to see her.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY WHEN HE STARTS IN ON THESE COMMENTS! 

Has this guy proved that he likes me? yes he has! multiple times over and over and over again, but when the same shit is being spewed from his mouth I have to wonder where his mind is at.  Why are relationships so hard!  Now, oops I said the big "R" word, but by all means that is friendships, family, dating, marriages and divorces.  

To end this blog, I am a very self conscious person.  I am the type that needs everything perfect and I hate surprises.  Have I been hurt in the past, HELL YA! and If this friendship develops into something more than am I ready for something to happen?  There are A LOT of things that are playing through my mind and yes, a big one is financial!  I have debt and I had an ex that put me in debt, and when people get into relationships then they should be aware of all aspects of the downers.  

I am me, I am a German girl, I have meat on my body, I love to eat and drink! I am just starting to get back into shape and some of my friends have accused me of doing this for a man! WRONG! I am just trying to get over what my ex did to me.  Well, that he helped me with.  I am very self conscience about my body and the way I look.  I am have had issues with men and they have done some real hurt to me and yes I am afraid to some degree of relationships.  I am afraid of what a man can keep doing to me, as I have had so much done to me already!

I am tired of the cycle and I just want someone to love me for me and not judge me.  This is what this man has done.  He has so far looked at me and liked me for me and now my insecurities are getting the best of me. 

In other words, I am blowing it because I am afraid of letting this person down.  

Wow, deep blog! 

until next time, 

Jewellz

People, how fascinating!

Ok, so today I am deciding to talk about people.  People in general! There are gossipers, whiners, sarcasticalness, the needy, the outgoing, and the sad....oops don't forget the crazy!


Gossiper a person given to tattling or idle talk.
These are the people that everyone wants to be friends with and then when they turn around and talk about you to others and you find out in the most amusing way, and trust me gossipers, WE DO FIND OUT! They out right deny it!  So let's see, you meet this person that is all of the above but for some reason you magnetize to them, there is something about them that just pulls you in and you just find yourself losing a grip on who you are as an individual because of the gossiper.  BUT, let's face it, everyone, and I mean everyone loves gossip! myself included, however, the thing is that you have to learn not to get so caught up in the gossiping that your life becomes, well, broken!

Whiners to snivel or complain in a peevish, self-pitying way
we move onto the whiners, I dislike these people so much! The whine about everything, their life, the money they make, their spouse, their kids, their car, their friends, their family, and not to mention, the world!  Ok, so because of my strong dislike for these people, I just have to say GET OVER IT! if you don't like it, try and fix it, if you can't fix it, find a way to deal with it!  I mean seriously people, your life cannot be that bad, and if it is, have you ever sat back and thought that maybe, just maybe if you STOPPED whining your life may get better!


sarcasticalness a sharply ironical taunt; sneering or cutting remark
ok I really don't mind sarcastic people, but there is a time and a place for everything.  There are some sarcastic people that are sarcastic funny and then their are some sarcastic people that are rude.  I dislike rude people and even dislike more rude sarcasticalnesss.  Why in my opinion is it that when you are sarcastic must you feel that you have to be rude about it, like come on, seriously.  I think that this category of people can merge into so many other categories, such as rude people, arrogant people, bullies, and even just ignorant people.  Wow never thought that I could go into this with sarcasm!


needy Wanting or needing affection, attention, or reassurance, especially in excessive degree
The needy, now when I talk about the needy, I am not talking people that have no money, or homes, or clothes.  I am talking about people that are just down right needy! Lol! I am talking about the people that cannot be alone, or the ones that are so not independent.  These people seem to feel that if they are not attached to your hip than they cannot live.  Like come on please, what am I, your momma?  Get a life!  These needy people need to learn how to live, and not hide away and / or depend on people.  Be your own person and learn to love yourself so that you are not so reliant on others.


outgoing interested in and responsive to others; friendly; sociable
The outgoing people, I love these people as I am one!  These people are genuine and they are down to earth and mostly they are people persons!  These people are able to be with others as well as be independent.  They know who they are and what they want and most importantly they love themselves.  They have friends, possible sticking out of their wazoo or they may have a small but close circle.   These people have all sorts of interests and they just know how to merge into a scenario and they know all of the emotions, and characteristics of just being!


sad affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful:
The sad, well this just about says it all!  In my career I see many many people that are sad.  Sadness is just not a nice feeling.  Some people have troubles with sadness and some are just born to be sad.  I feel sorry for them.  I mean come on, how many times in your life have you been sad, probably a lot.  Everyone gets sad from time to time, but I am talking about these people that are sad ALL the time.  I often like to have heart to heart talks with these people because often I think they need people to listen.  Now, if your sad all the time, perhaps you should invest in some happy pills!  Sometimes they just take the edge off!


craziness having an unusual, unexpected, or random quality, behavior, result, pattern
The best is for last.  The crazy! Ok so there are a lot of crazy people in the world.  Many times there are all sorts of types of crazy.  There are some people that are crazy because they have 3 pairs of pants on and they are all different sizes or they have a mental illness.  Some people that don't have mental illnesses most times try to pretend that they are not crazy and that makes them appear even MORE crazy.  Let's face it, if your crazy, your crazy! LOL


So, your probably wondering why I am blogging all this.  Well, I have seen all of these people today!  I am very interested in people because we as Homo sapiens are fascinating! The way we look, walk, talk, behave and our mannerisms.


Have you ever been in a public place and just sat back and watched people?  I mean some people think that I am weird if I look at them for too long.  I apologize if I ever do that to you, I just want to study your face so much that I want to soak in what you look like.  Maybe I am freaky but I am just completely fasinated with people.  I love to look at people and wonder not only what the insides of them are like, thier mind but also where they came from.  I am fascinated!


Well, my suggestion to any of you is to go to a place that has lots of people around, and get a coffee and sit back and just study people, I am sure either you will have a good laugh or be extremely interested.  I know I am!  So if you ever see a beautiful lady starring at you, than perhaps its me!


Until next time,
Jewellz

Valentine's Day.....Friend or Foe?

Valentine's day....friend or foe?

Ok ok so every year at this time I seem to go into hiberbation! I might be a little bitter at the fact that ANOTHER V day rolls around. Why, because everyone that I have been with has SUCKED! This year is the first year that I have received 2 V day cards! 2, CAN YOU BELEIVE IT? and you know what the cool thing is, THEY ARE FROM THE SAME MAN!

Ok, in all honesty, do we need to celebrate love only on one day, it should be every day but with less hoopla! The hype about V day is that men have an excuse to spoil women or even forget about the day, sorry girls but we are spoiled bitches! Get over the fact that a man must buy you something on ONE day to show their love, MEN STEP UP! Treat your woman to flowers at least twice a month! if not flowers, than find what makes her gush! Woman right now reading this are probably thinking, "what a bitch, she just dissed me!" Come on girls, admit it, we are spoiled! and what do we do for our men, other than NAG! You can see why I am single now LMFAO!

Now, my big question is that I know most men are not the most in touch with their inner feelings and all lovey dovey but why is it that when you have been with someone for awhile it becomes unneeded to do something special on V day, OR ANY DAY! Love on us! We pop out kids, manage a house, keep most men on track, we feed your sexual desires, and for the most part look SWEET naked! (FOR THE MOST PART)

Am I a friend or foe of V day? well, in the past I have been a Foe, because of the Jerks that have blessed my life on V day. Seriously, the men that have blessed me have forgotten or have lied and said that they would spoil me but they don't have the money, IT'S NOT ABOUT THE MONEY ASSHOLES! Now, If I actually had been with that treated me the way I should be treated on V day like every other bitchy woman than maybe I would be a friend!

As I mature and get older I am starting to SLOOOOOWLY like V day and that is because I am no longer getting spoiled by men, because I am not! I am getting spoiled by everyone! The past V day, my good buddy gave me a V day gift, chocolates and heart shaped balloons and stuff but she put it in a Budwiser bottle! AH I FEEL LOVED! Balloons in a Budwiser bottle, thanks babe! I was newly single and I needed a pick me up! So outside of my mommy, I was blessed with someone that just wanted me to smile, and I got a vase of Budwiser balloons!

I also am finding that V day is not only about men and women but it is about woman to woman, or woman to elder, or elder to woman, men to elder, or elder to men, however, the later of that sentence is kinda unusual, because men just don't celebrate V day with other men, unless your gay or you have a son!

So, let's sort this out! V day from this point on will be everyday, except that there will be no hoopla! perhaps, I will go and get 356 little "Be my Valentine" cards and hand one to each person that has touched my life!

Perhaps I am also going to cheap out (probably will actually) and just tell as many people that count that have blessed my life, just how much they mean to me!

All in all peeps, if you are single and it is V day, tell someone you love them because we can! If you don't have anyone to say "I love you" to, call or visit a war vet and tell them that you love them! Vet's need love to!

Happy V day everyone, I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!

Until next time,
Jewellz

New Year, New Blogger

Hi everyone,

Ok so it's a new year, a new decade and it's time to start all over again, fresh!

A quick note today!

Look for new post this year dealing with all sorts of stuff such as liars, losers, elders, and more!

Look forward to sharing all the interesting things with you!

Until next time,

Jewellz